About me,
where me=Kalin KOZHUHAROV

Why do I exist/live?

because I do!: and you can live with me, or try to do something about it ;-)
to make good people happy: and to decide who is good and who is bad (for my own purposes)
to leave something good after me: because poor or rich, good or bad, no matter what, all men die; however some of their deeds remain after their death...

What inspires me?

love: pure magic, the most powerful drug, the felling you know you have (or don't) ;-)
solving the unsolvable (or hard) problems: proves I can do anything = survive
beauty around me: most Nature, beautiful people, some art
teaching and learning: improving myself and the environment

What turns me down?

making irrecoverable (at that time) mistakes: going far from perfect
unqualified "professionals": everybody should know what is s/he doing
having to communicate with people who cannot communicate: plain PITA
badly designed systems, closed systems: when I have something (a system), I want to use it at least 120% and together with other systems
bad weather: hot and humid; drizzling; a thunderstorm is a good weather, or at least followed by such

What have I achieved?

indestructible mind at rest, backed up with lots of knowledge about the world: cannot prove it and its box (=body) is still vulnerable :-(
5 human and many computer languages: communicate, communicate, communicate - even with machines
can clearly and cleverly express any concept to anybody: communicate, communicate, am I repeating myself?
have wide and deep knowledge of Linux and the Open Source landscape: give me a Linux box with Internet and an IT problem and I'll solve it
in top 4 high school students in Chemistry in Bulgaria (28th IChO, Moscow 1996): experimenting (even with explosives) is a challenge in its own right
leader of a rescue squad (UASO): That I call a true leader; you are given no plans, no info, no time; you have to survive, make sure your team survives, and still be able to help the victims; you make a small mistake and somebody (you?) die...
managed the information security of the 4th biggest business unit (Japan) of the 278th ranked company in Fortune 1000, 2006 (Adecco): (not for public release)
finally arrived at "my job" - Information Security Consultant: all the three words have a deep meaning for me and my core values

What are my goals?

get an indestructible body: the box and shield for mind and soul
find my soul-mate and have a pair of indestructible souls: souls are always forked in complementary pairs and a pair of souls is more stable than two single souls (yeah, Chemistry background)
climb K2 and come back alive: The dream of my childhood; the reason I started climbing; probably the hardest mountain on Earth
become a well-known name in Information Security worldwide: so I can teach people more easily
educate people about Linux and OSS, globalization and open standards: so people can appreciate the difference and feel more free in their choices
invent and find way to give away a portable thermonuclear fusion device: inventing it is one (easier) part; finding a way to distribute the knowledge without somebody abusing it is the ultimate challenge
found a new business for technical rescue (high rise buildings, mountain, sea, etc.): because rescue is my "natural environment"

Misc. about me

What do I think about money?: Money is a man-made wall, 'cause people are trying to order a chaotic world.
Once you have a certain amount of money you are able to solve your issues, but you hit more difficult ones.
Most problems are not solved with money (even with a lot of money), yet few people are exposed to such problems in their "normal" life.
Money is an intricate drug that one gets dependent on with or without realizing; usually with inevitable adverse effects.
work=money?: I (almost) never work for money. I hope and am almost sure that I will never have to do it. I work (spend energy x time) to make people happy. Making (good) people happy makes me happy. If I work for money, sometimes I will make bad people happy; so I don't.
money=work?: Yes. Very simply put work = energy * time, so even if you win the lottery, you have to do something to get to that point (not to mention the hard work of guarding yourself from "friends" after that). No pain - no gain! It is entirely up to me (you) to decide how I (you) work, how much I (you) work and more or less how much money I (you) get as a side effect. And never mistake activity for action!
Life without ... ?!?: money: entirely possible; hard, but may be happy; happiness: hard, hard, hard (if I have love, I am happy, so these are exclusive); love: impossible, not in the long term at least

Questions I often get asked:

Are you a freak/geek/crazy man?: Yes/yes/yes. In your eyes I am whatever I choose to be and I like it that way.
You often speak about love... Do you know what love is?: Yes, I have felt it. I have loved and have been loved, and both at the same time as well. Love is a feeling you will never mistake for something else; you know, no, you feel when it is there; you don't question it.
NEVER ask anybody "Do you love me?" : if you don't feel it, the answer is no anyway.
OK, OK, but then what exactly is "LOVE"?: I told you - a felling, a special one. You cannot "understand it", at least I could not, so I gave up. I recently realized that love is (may be) the most powerful drug, so beware.
You said you cannot live without love... but you haven't found your soul-mate... so you don't love anybody now? How can you live?: Correct. Now I am surviving on batteries in power-save mode. I hope not for long...
How can you be so confident in yourself and in everything you say/do?: I can. I am. I have to live up to my own expectations. Thank you for noticing, BTW ;-)
You have no right to judge people! Who do you think you are?: I have that right. You have the right to neglect my judgment or consider it. I am Kalin, I thought you knew me?
Why are you so obsessed with surviving? What bad do you think is going to happen?: Because I want to survive, because I have goals to achieve. The end of the world is coming, no matter if it will be global warming, black hole, earthquake or disease. When, I don't know. Look around yourself and think for yourself: what good has happened for the mankind in the last 20 years? (I don't remember much past that)
We are irreversibly changing our environment for the bad, yet we are highly dependent on it; Humans are not dependent on money, oil, weapons, politics, cars, IT, mobile phones, TV, game consoles... this is a long list... humans are dependent on love/spirit, air, water, soil/food and sun/fire
Why do you hate smoking so much? Aren't you too aggressive to smokers?: Tobacco is a kind of socially accepted drug that smells really bad, I hate that smell but I can detect it in minute quantities. My head hurts, I feel bad, I fell tired from tobacco smoke. Smokers are generally weak people, drug addicts of a kind. I don't like weak people. Tobacco has enough adverse effects on the human body and mind, I don't believe in quitting, although I know a few people who did quit for real. I'll never get serious or even go out with a girl who smokes/had smoked or does not mind smoking (passive smoker). BTW, I have smoked one cigarette and this has been thoroughly photo-documented by non-believing people who knew me well.
I am never aggressive, especially to good people; or at least you haven't seen me being aggressive. I am persistent, firm, consistent.
What about drugs? Have you taken drugs? Is alcohol a drug as well?: Drugs are evil by definition. Alcohol can be a drug as well. Anything can be a drug if you are addicted to it and cannot exist without it (e.g. love). I have never been drunk, despite many people trying to get me there. I have never tried or wanted to try any real drugs. May be the adrenaline reaction is my drug - I often seek it, it is generally dangerous, can be lethal, I often realize I am addicted to living a dangerous/adventurous life; in the end, I am not perfect either.
As far as love=drug, I still have no solution, I just have to try it again it seems.

About me,where me=Kalin KOZHUHAROV

Why do I exist/live?

What inspires me?

What turns me down?

What have I achieved?

What are my goals?

Misc. about me

Questions I often get asked:

About me,
where me=Kalin KOZHUHAROV